You just cannot slow down and content with everything you have. I felt defeated. Yes. I thought i would be the one leading you career wise. But there is actually someone out there helping and make sure you got the job from deloitte. 

No i'm not unhappy because you use to hang out closely with him. But i just thought that i am the one that was opening up the opportunity for you. But obviously, i'm weak. 

I'm happy for you of course. I'm seriously am. But i'm upset for myself. I have no one out there to help me although i'm not looking for any. 

It felt like a battle was lost before even i went into the scene.