I'm not sure I got rejected really because of exams or..............

Put all things aside. There are days that I thought I deserve something, but most of the days I think I'm not good enough.

Its been living in the lie for 3-4 years. When can i live a life out of these?

i just want a companion when i'm weak

Sad

It certainly hurts. I've been always thinking on the good side. But not accepting the fact. I have underestimated the feeling of waiting. For a short message, Just a simple msg.

Sometimes I'm wondering do I really stand a chance. Nothing can take away the fear off me.

I'm becoming less and less important

Realised that i have so many things to change, so many things to improved.

1. Stop all negative thinkings! Stop emoing, you wouldn't want the ppl are not obliged to make u feel good!
2. Have higher self esteem!
3. Determination in achieving goals, while not letting your goals into drain.

This blogpost is a reminder!

Hello panda strawberry

失望的不是不能去云顶，失望的是我知道我们没有机会见面了。

If there is one day somebody will tell me that she feel blessed to have me around.

I cannot imagine I am actually weeping and do not know what to do. Oh God please have mercy on me. I do not want to lose someone so important to me yet I don't think I am fit enough to handle these. When can all these hell days going to be over?