It has came to a point that i do not how to face the people around me. I have failed to live out the standard and expectation that people has in me. Or rather the expectation that i have for myself.

Hmm...

I suddenly came across a thought. I wonder sometimes, are we conscious of the things we say, the reaction we gave on certain things, the words we use, the way we talk are certainly changing from time to time, seasons to seasons, it probably related to the people we are close with from time to time. Probably the way I speak now compared during A-levels or secondary school are different. We always get influenced by the people around us or probably its a TREND.

But I have a question, probably sit down and think, are we the one who is influenced? or the one influencing others? When we talk about the way you speak, certain word you use or some crap body languages... Nahh.. those are small problems. How about your life principles have changed? or Habits have changed? Then that's a big thing. *What wrong with it? =.="*

Hmm....

Why? How?

Probably some of the times when things happened, we asked "why?"

But I guess "how?" would be a better question, since things had already happened.

Fruitful life

After so many things happened in life, you will finally find a way or rather sneak out from the unconsciousness to find something that you are passion about and to at least feel that your life is fruitful enough. haha!

I was listening to Onerepublic-Secrets and Rang Wo Qu Nuan-Cass Phang & Wang LeeHom and walking home after work on Friday, this street is just behind my house and you will sure need to pass by here and normally because of the hot weather, i will fast fast walk back home, haha! But on Friday i suddenly have a feeling, why I can't i just walk slower and to look at my surroundings and to feel what's happening in the midst of me. I saw birds flying, kids playing football, and the trees waving as the wind blows. Haha! suddenly out of no where I just found that this is a tremendous scenery to take down and despite my phone 1 mega pixel quality it was not too bad. haha!

Then Friday night went to Small Group again, erm, this is a super cute dog man. Her name is "Faith" by the way. Sleeping with me hugging her. haha!

Its a Chih-Tzu breed! I learn about some dog breeds in a pet shop, "Pet's wonderland" in Great eastern mall. haha!

Lesson of the day -  Don't drain yourself with work and work and work. There is no such thing as you must fight hard when you are young, i'm not asking you to not to work hard just that you must know your limit, if not, you are kinda like borrowing your energy from your future (In accounting term - Accrued energy HAHA!), you will feel the repercussion in the future. Human still needs to be recharge from time to time. Different people has different things to drain them off and to fill them up, so you got to really sit down and to reflect on your life. For me? I guess what fills me is spending quality time with people i love, sense of accomplishment, sense of belonging. Now you guys know what to give me friends haha! :)

Kar Hoe

Insomnia Again

Sleepless night again. =/ Physically tired, mentally tired, but when you go onto the bed, thought flying all over the mind. haha!

No sure if anybody read my blog also, can post some emo stuff then. :P Except for Sakong and Sakadi maybe. :D

KarHoe

GGness

I guess some of my close friends knows that I got stitches on my leg last 2 months. This is how it looks like when I hurt my leg.

My phone camera suck but nvm. Haha!

This is how does it look like after 2 months. ROAR!

Kar Hoe

Interesting stuff

This summer work, erm, i always complained that work is boring, this la that la, the biggest reason is because i can't spend that much of a quality time with friends and family, a few friends leaving to UK soon. And you will be frustrated with the little amount of time you have to settle some personal affairs. I supposed to shop for a leather shoe this weekend cuz my leather shoe is errr how to say? superbly spoilt. I went to 4 bata shops on sat and sun, but they DON'T HAVE MY SIZE. ROAR! I supposed to drop by sungai wang just now to have a look but too late. =/ So gotta wear my spoilt leather shoe for work tmrw. :D

To keep me entertaining during this 2 months of work, i kinda like take some interesting photos during my lunch break. haha! this is the 3rd one!



*RM956.50*

i WONDER how to buy groceries until like that, I was at cold storage at Great Eastern mall to buy a box of... "mint" sweet? candies? (to keep me awake during work) HAHA! then this lady pushing a half filled trolley and paying money, then i saw the price. I was like @@ half filled trolley cost around 1k?!

Kar Hoe

Another bits and pieces

I think most of you guys knows there is a mall beside my office block, not beside actually, its the same building.. HAHA! One day i was walking into Pets wonderland during lunch time and i saw this.. FUH!



I wonder why human do not have Pizza or either Spaghetti flavour toothpaste! And another point, if you don't brush your teeth twice a day, hehehe! Dogs and cats also brush teeth la deh! :D

Kar Hoe

Bits and pieces

These are some of the bits and piece of my working life, though its kinda boring. =/



This is my work station, normally i will sit here and fish after lunch but of course making sure i finish those work that are assigned to me la! haha!

Tired week

It's much a tired week, not physically but mentally. Friday night, as usual, i went to Small Group in Ronald's place. I have been there for 3 years, not every week though, but time flies.

Kind of like too many things happened recently? A secondary schoolmate, Jen Ruw passed away about 3 weeks ago. Heard of the stories of his family and i find that I feel really really sorry for his family.

Yesterday, Trez(Kian Wing's sister)'s dog passed away. Just a dog what, whats the big deal? It has its story behind it. Trez and kian wing's mum passed away last 2 years. Soon after that, they bought this dog back and named it Joy(suppose to bring joy to the family). The main purpose of this dog is to keep their dad accompany because for a retired man and all sons and daughters are working its kinda lonely right? For these 2 and half years, Joy has been bringing real "joy" to the family. Yesterday, when they brought Joy to the Vet and the vet came out from the room and says:" Sorry, there is nothing that i can do already" The whole family wept, the scene was exactly the same 2 years ago when their mum leaves them. Her dad then said:" Last 2 years my wife left me, and now, i'm left alone again" Joy has been taken away! Joy has been a big part of her dad's life, morning wake up he will feed "her" till in the evening he will bring "her" for an evening walk. Why is the routine sorrow gotta happen in the family?

STOP & THINK, reflect on your daily life.. have you done your best for your love once and the people who love you? Once you take them for granted, when time flies, things are not the same anymore, then we will start feeling regret for the things that we do not do. Small details, bits and pieces of our life, thats the difference we can make.

Jeff and Sue is a lovely couple in church just got married last 2 years. Last year they got a baby but got miscarriage 2 months after that. I was shocked this morning when i got an sms from Ronald saying that Jeff has a 3.2 cm tumor in his brain. He was supposed to go for a CT scan to check on his vocal chord, some part around the throat cuz he lost his voice for like quite some time, not as in really cant talk but difficulty in talking like when you are having cough and runny nose together. But end up the CT scan results shows that he got a tumor in his Brain. So he was admitted to the hospital today for a further MRI and other test. Why do they need to go through such uneasy time in life together?

What happened to this world laa?? What is life all about weh? Some of the time, we complaint about life, complaint about some of the things that do not work in our ways, but there are things in life we don't complaint, not because it is small but it is too big to the extend we got nothing to say about it, just accept the fact.

Kar Hoe

Its never fair for me

Just wondering, some of the things in life, you do, think, you work for it, but the situation will never be fair for your side. I also don't know what i'm saying, so.. nvm, nights ppl!

Kar hoe

Insomnia

For certain reason, i still feel the same after the referral paper today. The paper was okay, but i cant put a high hope i know, high hope as in getting a 2nd upper or 2nd lower. Pass is good for me. Taylor's didn't change much though, JAM JAM JAM 7pm, i used 40 mins to get to pyramid, supposed to be a 5 mins trip. Rather lonely day, 10am reach college and spend 6 hours there alone in the library. Then after exam eating dinner alone. I was amazed by the amount of food i partake these 3 days, if the lost of appetite could slim me down, then its good. hehe

I do not know since when i have very very low expectations on myself already, be it studies, or anything i do in life.

Either i have slacked, or things just didn't go on the right track, i do not know.

Working is kinda boring, i would describe the people there lifeless because they talked about work before working time, they talk about work during lunch time, they talked about work after working time, the malays buka puasa in the office still doing work. Its like selling your life to the company, though sometimes i might have a lot of work to do but i didn't really care about it, when its time to go home, i'll run 1st. HAHA! at least can take a detour in the Great Eastern mall before going home. I got some interesting photos though, post it up next time. :P

Last weekend had a nice and cozy steamboat with Edwyn, Gitying, Benji, Foong and Chenpeng. Hope we can spend more time together.

Cheers people, i only left 5 hours plus of sleep. hahaa!